Price to pay

Does the silence
that you keep
bring you solace
enough to sleep

Does your heart
measure
incomplete
when going about your week

Does your mind
reveal
subconscious thoughts
that bring you back
to me...

Does the silence
that you kept
haunt you now
where freedom
should have
set you free...

Dimensions

Upon awakening
from a sleep so deep
entering this world
confused as I think...

The lines we cross
can sometimes seem
so real
coming back
leaves questioning...

Answers to our
lives in dilemma
encoded passages
leading us through...

On shaky ground
my view is hued
upon awakening
clarity misconstrued.

Happy Birthday!

I have lived well beyond
the years I've reached
today
bearing the weight
I struggled through n' through
set upon me
I share blame
choices I forged
alliances I made...

I am not here
to seek the light of day
a moment of disarray
I reminisce
to find my way
seeing exactly
what I claim...

The years that cover me
are not the same
reverting back
lost memory
contentment I've found
easily pleases me
onward bound
beseech me...

My angels

You are my angels
did you know...
every decision, every thought
when truth be told
forget me not...
always you are sought

Before me as I wake
taking hold this hand in fate
you cover my mistakes
and teach me what to take

You lead me, as if I'm following
my mind is clear on that
at times
when hesitation over clouds
my intuition brings me back

You are my angels
I'm aware of that
surrounded in my path
everyday, each moment past...

Untimely

I watched you
as you were leaving...
slow, was a relevant term
for into your soul your eyes
revealed,
Our life lay ed out in plan.

My words were
sunken and muddled,
with such pain...
this departure was insane.

I've always gone
with you, don't leave me here...
your stepping into another plane,
hard for me to explain.
Promise me you'll meet me,
when my course is drawing near.

Words unspoken

Was it purpose I first saw,
the glimmer in your eyes,
That boyish grin,
that led to cries...

The way you curled up next to me,
releasing all denies...
Surrender caught by surprise.

It wasn't in the words you spoke,
nor how you looked at me...
it was all the things,
in which you gave to me.

The tear that fell,
from the corner of your eye,
the gentle touch that lingered on me...
the cup of tea, the fragrant rose,
the sharing of your clothes...
the note that said, don't leave me.

Was it love that I first saw,
that made you come to me...
The man that owns his dream.

Stepping stones...

I've travelled so many roads in time,
making the acquaintance,
some lasting, if only for awhile.

For the time it takes,
to listen, and a hand shake,
opened my mind to levels,
that paved my life's direction.

Some I have brought with me,
some reflect a memory,
But all, I have not forsaken...

For without these faces,
I would not be,
well rounded of person,
no regrets here indeed.

In search of purpose...

My conscious tells me patience...
reason argues the fact,
for while I lie here, decipherable unsure,
complacence at my door.

What I'm looking for, escapes
my realm of theory...
Within my grasp I'm trying to reach,
The existence of its fury.

There's always something,
steering me on,
away from what seems apparent.

Where my purpose will focus on,
remains in front of me.
I rest assured, it's coming forth...
In time to rescue me.

2009

Hello everyone!
Glad to be back. Need to fix a
few things however. Some things are
missing from my blog. Go figure!
That's a how do ya do! 2009.

I will be updating a few things
on my blog for the next week.
Pictures etc., new poems.
Yes, I'm still alive and kicking!
I think my blog is overdue for this.

Hope you all had a wonderful
Happy New Year! Lets make this
one count! see ya soon...hang in there!

New things to come, my blog needs
a new pair of shoes! (LOL)

Hi everyone!
I'm trying to get prepared for a
New Year...
How about all of you?
are you ready? I'm pretty organized.
I like to have some sort of idea, then
execute it most proficiently.
Needless to say, I'm going to need
every hour that's left to this year
to prepare. I have many changes to make
for this new year approaching.
I need to see and feel a lot more progress.
The clouds aren't dissipating fast enough
in front of me to see clearly my path.

How about you?
are you on track? Do you have any plans in motion
yet? I'm not going to concentrate on what
to "give up" for the new year.
I am trying to concentrate on what I
need to do to acquire what I want to feel.
The old approaches are not working anymore.
So see you all in the New Year!
New beginnings abound!
May you all have a wonderful New Year!

Bessye (Visions)

My wishes for you

Happy Holidays!
Wishing everyone a wonderful Holiday Season!
I hope that all will find comfort in the "Little"
things, that do bring us so much joy...

I find myself thinking about those who may have no
one to share the Holiday with.
For those who can not afford a gift or two.
You will be in my thoughts, for I have been
there too...

Remeber what it's really all about in your hearts.
And the magic which is unknown in our logical heads,
will be shown in ways you didn't see before.
It may be through a phone call, unexpected...
It may be in a stranger who lends a hand.
It may be that you wake up to a feeling of warmth,
because someone placed a blanket over you
during the night...whether you live on the street
or in a gorgeous home.

It's usually found in the things we normally
take for granted because we're too busy.
Yes, your all in my thoughts on this Holiday Season.
I pray for those who are in need,
and wish you all the comfort of joy!
Happy Holidays!

Snow

We have upon us,
not a dream, but for such a distance,
cloud like in texture,
and whiter than cream.

It has fallen all about us,
Quite magical I believe.
It glistens and sparkles,
and leaves traces, not otherwise seen.

It comes but once a year,
in silence it appears,
it's presence is clear,
St. Nick is coming here!

So gather all your sleighs,
leaving shovels in dismay...
it's time to revel...
in this display!

Everything around me

You seldom speak to me,
I listen for a sound...
I feel your presence always near me?
as if your standing around...

You effect my thoughts,
the things that I choose to do...
Why are you so powerful?
even though I can't see you...

I've been with you all along,
even when your not beside me.
I feel I never had a choice,
my life unfolds before me...

Until the end, when we formally meet,
have mercy on my soul tonight,
It was the mistakes that taught me right,
not that they took me from your sight.

Not that I'm complaining or anything...
but this weather is crazy!
I understand that we are getting fifty degrees
in upper NY tomorrow. Cool!
This has been a weird season so far.
But I'll take it.
Hope that everyone had a great weekend.
Will share with you tomorrow.
Until then, stay warm if your cold,
and cool if your warm...

My Friend

My thoughts of you,
are seldom new,
enriched by shades of blue.

You've travelled along this
path of mine,
sharing a laugh or two.

As comfort names my many moods,
I'm usually thinking of you.
Along my side, you've never
questioned why...
just glanced a cognitive smile.

And like an old shoe,
I'll never lose,
this patient friendship of mine.